We can only be miserable for so long before we wake up. Don’t waste your years, or heart, on someone who clearly doesn’t value you. Its possible this is your first love, in which case this is a very common situation. Just remember, we only get one shot at life and we don’t have much time on this earth. Do you really want to look back when you’re older and say “damn, I gave that blood sucking woman my best years” and got nothing but a sour heart to show for it? Save it for someone who knows your value! You won’t regret it, and this person that you’re literally sacrificing yourself for will be nothing but a distant memory. Stand up tall my friend. I think I will always be in love with my ex -boyfriend. He touched parts of my heart and soul and gone deeper than anyone I had ever been with.
I felt loved by him and I loved him. As time went on I noticed things about him that would eat at my nerves. I know I could not be with him on an everyday basis. Now I know that the love for him will always be there but the mechanics that make a real relationship work day in and day out cannot be there because he broke my trust, even though I know he is a shit I still have the deep down love for him. I have learned to seperate the love for him and real life and what it takes to make an everyday relationship work. I am married to a wonderful, healthy. trustworthy man that is decent in every cell of his body. May I suggest that you first reflect on your own thoughts and record them in a journal. Do that for as long as you feel necessary.