Certain situations has lead to other where we’ve been intimate and I still feel guilty about it and feel.like there’s just something wrong with this relationship. But I deeply love him n I’ve lost my best friend as a result. I’ve always been convincing myself this relationship will end considering our religious indifference but he still has this hope of been with me even thinking of marriage. From the first time I spoke to him till now,it’s been 8 months and in still unsure. You don’t. Kids need to learn about life and not be shielded from every minor bump on the road. It might not be a matter of what your daughter likes but what the asssigment was. Dealing with different teachers and there differing expectations is a part of learning to adjust ti reality. Not everybody will always give you praise.
I just want to share my burden. I was born in lower middle class family In India. I was second child of parents. I have big brother. everything was good in childhood. but things changed when my father died due to fatal accident. It was worst day of my life. After some days my mothers behaviour changed she use to behave oddly. My brother also got into wrong friend circle. And started drinking and use of some drugs. My mother started having affair with our neighbor.
He was a bad person. He use to come to home when me and my brother were out of home. I was completing my graduation. and my brother had good degree but he was paid only 8k per month. Our financial conditions were worst. One day My brother caught my mother while doing act. He got angry and thrashed the neighbor. Then after using abusive language for mother he left. when I came home i came to know whole incidence and scene created by my brother. At night around 1 am in night someone was banging the door. when I opened it was brother who was drunken.
He took one step and fell down. I took him to his room. then he got conscious, and was looking at me in some weird way. I felt danger and headed to leave room. he grabbed my hand and pulled me over. I was not able to shout as in day there was scene created in my home and I don’t wanted to create another. He said why only mother should enjoy. and started undressing me. I was helpless as he was much stronger than me. then at that night he took everything from me. and my mother also knew this but she kept quiet because it was her licence to get sexual pleasures. Then it was like routine for brother anytime he wanted to satisfy his desires he would come to my room and do whatever he wanted to fullfil his desires.
I was like his prostitute. Then in college I met a nice guy, I felt like he is the one who will take me out of that hell. he was very generous and kind hearted. soon we fell in love. we use to move around campus, in gardens. life was great outside the home. occasionally we kissed, cuddled. It was great time with him. one day he wanted to take me home. I thought he may be wanted to show his home. when we went there his house was empty no one was there. He told his parents are out of town and he wanted to do the things with me. I rejected the proposal but then he started putting some false allegations on me that i wanted to break up, and have another affair. he was ready to leave me. I don’t wanted to loose him so i agreed.
There were many times over the years that they said or did something to me when no one else was paying attention and when I reacted, it was all on me. Talking to my then husband about it did nothing. He sided with them no matter what, even the few times he saw how I was treated. Over the years, I put up with passive aggressive behavior from them. I caught them lying to get their way or manipulating my husband to get what they wanted from us. If they were upset with me, they would never speak directly to me, they would go after my husband and if I confronted them, they’d act like they had no idea what I was talking about. There were so many incidents that I could write a book the size of a Harry Potter book. They are a big part of the reason I’m divorced but of course, they will never see anything wrong with their actions.