Technically, I think in multiple threads and directions at the same time. If something really interests me, all the threads will be in the same direction (hyperfocus) and I will get complex things done quickly and easily. On the other hand, most people think in a more “focused”, or sequential manner. They can tell you exactly what they are thinking about, and you can probably diagram their current thought process in a flowchart. My thought process flows like water in a stream. Pebbles aren’t obstacles, as my thoughts easily flow around them. I am most content and relaxed when my thoughts are flowing freely, just like when a stream flows and beautiful sounds are being generated. Why would I want to stop? I suspect that the answer to this question is highly subjective: people find all sorts of situations relaxing or stressful, depending on their character. For example, you have mentioned “quiet” but this is not necessarily something that people find relaxing. An anechoic chamber, for example, is a space that many people find slightly disturbing because of its unnaturally quiet. Colour is said to play a significant role in relaxation. Personally I find some shades of green extremely disturbing (i.e. toothpaste green). Some people respond well to reds and blues ; many people find yellows stimulating. Perhaps this relates to early life or deep brain experiences e.g. red relating to the comfort of the womb ; blue to soothing water ; yellow to the sun etc. While this sounds rather hippy dippy, it’s quite well researched. Smells, likewise can either enhance relaxation or be positively disturbing. Smells like ammonia or cadaverine etc even induce physical reactions. Conversely, some smells are employed by aromatherapists for relaxation: ylang ylang for example. Again this is highly subjective: I find the smell of forests very relaxing, even though these are essentially “decay smells”. Some people might find these smells disturbing. Heat and cold strongly influence comfort and therefore relaxation. Excessive heat and cold are highly stressful as one can observe by watching people struggle with extreme heat on public transport. This leads on to… Other people. Company (whether, I suppose, human or animal) is a significant factor. Some people relax when they are alone and others hate it. Some people find the presence of animals relaxing and others not. I suspect this is the most subjective element of relaxation.
I’m a covert narsissist that is also diagnosed by a doctor and a psychologist to be in a constant state of fight or flight mode so I never truly relax except when I’m heavily medicated on sobril benzodiazepines and propranolol beta blockers. Tests show I have sky high stress levels and I’m constantly pumping out adrenaline. I’m always alert and ready for combat. But I have found some things that can calm the nervous system atleast somewhat ; ASMR videos of beautiful women making soft tender noises like brushing their hair – making breathing sounds or applying lotion to their body, tennis , yoga, mindfulness, chess, classical music, reading history or science books, cuddling with a woman, getting a massage, talking with my female psychopath bestfriend, drinking some tea of coffee while listening to the sound of raindrops or snowflakes, looking at boobs or butts, daydreaming. Wherever you choose to be or visit. You can create that living movie with all the details, sights and sounds, and smells in your very own private spot of your choice. It is quite relaxing. Another technique uses “Pursed breathing” Draw in some nice long slow deep breaths. Through pursed lips, slowly and evenly release your breath. Get those cells nice and oxygenated. Nice technique for mild anxiety. Try lying down and completely relax your entire body. Starting with your toes..begin tightening those muscles in your toes for a good 30 sec or so and slowly release as you feel the tension coming out. Continue this process with each individual part until you get to the top of your head. You certainly do sound rather exhausted and stressed out. it is not pleasant. There is a common misunderstanding that awareness of this makes it worse. However, I have found that the opposite applies. The active avoidance you mention, while seeming to make a lot of sense, in practice requires the expenditure of even more mental and physical energy to keep this natural awareness at bay. It can tire you even more. So, allocate yourself some quiet time each day. Can you find a quiet and pleasant place to sit for a while? It is good if you can face something natural such as a tree, the hills or the sea. Or even a cityscape. The most important aspect of natural meditation is the deep appreciation that there is nothing special for you to do.